On Faith and Doubt

For January, 2017, we explored my personal struggles with faith and doubt. I examined the things I want people to know the most about struggling with doubt, what Donnie Darko taught me about religious doubt, why my Christian give-a-damn is broken, and how I define Esoteric Christianity. As usual, my readers offered some compelling responses, […]

My Christian Give-a-Damn is Broken

I used to care so deeply. I used to care so deeply about right belief, about Orthodoxy, about the church’s teachings and how to best live them out. I used to care so much about being part of the inside, part of the Right Crowd. I used to care so deeply about not being cast […]

Nightmares, Agnosticism, and Esoteric Christianity

On Christmas Eve my partner and I watched an old favorite of mine: Donnie Darko. The film is a trippy, incoherent and yet strangely cathartic philosophical exploration of reality. Running through the film is Donnie’s struggles with belief in God. The film captures well the unreality and alienation that accompanies such deep exploration: little makes […]

Three Things I Need you to Know About Struggling With Doubt

For as long as I have had faith in God, I have also known doubt. My doubt and I have been in a dance for years, now, growing apart and then coming together, sometimes fighting, sometimes talking, sometimes choosing to understand one another. As I struggle with navigating the faith I love so dearly, I […]